sometimes, hope is a kind of anti-logic.
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enjoying 24! almost a woman. pharmacist. married soon. in love. nice. smart. impatient. improper. selfish. idealist. stubborn. perfectionist. absent-minded. ambivalent. silly. immature. sometimes i think too much. and my mood is like a rainbow with a dark black side.
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I don’t trust my heart. She always tells lies, and so easily be fooled by the concept of fate and destiny.
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i’m sick of this.
what you want is not always what you need. but, i just know that what i need is to get what i want. that’s why life is harsh. Why? Because universe always gives the opposite of what i want. Hence, my need won’t be fullfilled. in other words, it’s not an overdo thought, that maybe, what i actually need, is not to get what i want.
Maybe i’ll stop to have this kind of desires.
ngun(c/t)al ekspektasi*
One by one, all of my dreams are turning into nightmares. And all of my nightmares are coming true. because in every dream, the nightmare accompanies. aligned. nightmare is a dream that comes to fail. Later, my name will represent all of your failures.
*nguncal: throwing away the expectation; nguntal: swallowing the expectation.
i just don’t understand why a bad hope can easily come true? and now i wonder that our world is actually a list of bad hopes.
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ya udah sih, kalo di dna-nya ada gen malu-maluin, mau bertingkah normal pun ujung-ujungnya bikin malu.
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how weak i try, if i deserve it, i’ll own it. vice versa.
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